The Fullness of the Emptiness

Happy Birthday dear Akshay, you would have been 21 years old today here on Earth. You get a nebulous feeling on these special days of your loved ones, when they are no longer with you. These lines penned by Jeff Foster beautifully capture that feeling. 

                                   

If you are exhausted, rest 

If you don't feel like starting a new project,  don't

If you don't feel the urge to make something new 

Just rest in the beauty of the old, the familiar and the known

If you don't feel like talking, stay silent

If you are fed up with the news, turn it off

If you want to postpone something until tomorrow, do it

If you want to do nothing today, let yourself do nothing

Feel the fullness of the emptiness,

The vastness of the silence,

The sheer life in your unproductive moments,

Time does not always need to be filled,

You are enough simply in your being.

Time Unspools into Space

Eight years ago Akshay let go of his body. Time is a combination of past, present and future. The past is in our heads, and the future in our hands. Einstein once said,' I never think of the future, it comes soon enough.' These pictures from the past are glimpses of happier days. This going back and forth brings the awareness that we must accept death as a part of life and not the end of life.

Long Distance Love

March 21 - the day Akshay joined his Earth Family sixteen years back and left quite suddenly six years back. We have often felt as if he is around us in a tingling feeling, in a flash of light, in that heartache or in that wispy white cloud. While it is perfectly normal to believe that our grief is giving wings to our imagination, quantum science research says that entangled particles remain connected so that actions performed on one affect the other, even when they are separated by great distances. Albert Einstein is known to have called this quantum entanglement spooky action at a distance. This means, long after our loved one are physically gone, their spirit and our hearts are inextricably entangled. Just as they have a special place in our hearts, we too have special place in theirs.

Akshay_Fur Elise

I had made this small video for Akshay in 2012 for his birth anniversary but never went public with it on You Tube. He had learnt to play Fur Elise in his piano classes when he was eight or so, apart from Yankee Doodle and other songs. The music of Fur Elise is so mesmerising it defies words...parts of it are melancholic and parts of it joyful. After listening to it you feel as if all those tight knots inside have loosened up and you can relax. Did you know Beethoven never played Fur Elise in front of an audience during his lifetime. What a pity! He had composed it in 1810. It came to public notice long after his death due to his illegible handwritten notes. Today Fur Elise is a must-learn piece in every piano class there is. That's the world's way of showing gratitude to a musical maestro!